Tuesday, January 31, 2012

January 2012. results

- 39 pips

-16 %

Friday, January 27, 2012

New direction

I just sat there and watched market. All sub minute charts were gone. My general intention is not to trade but just observe. Trades that were taken later were the ones that I simply had to take because market showed it's hand. So that's it, do nothing except where it's so obvious that you don't even think should I take that trade or not.
Eur/jpy move got stopped and my trade got stopped. Immediately after eur/usd started strong up movement. Both of those trades could move strong and significant distance. You don't know in advance what will play out. Job is just to follow some reasonable trade management plan.
So from now on I hope for more watching less trading.
+10 pips

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

-15 pips

I need to move away from sub minute charts. I get direction but execution kill me.

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Friday, January 20, 2012

Angry child

Still not able to control myself. After failure of swing trade idea emotional response. It's sometimes like I have emotional response of a child that is angry and frustrated and grownup that is also emotional and punishing that child for mistakes that it made. Just emotion after emotion play itself out. With demo like account I don't have pain of lost money after so I can look closer at it after.
Market wasn't that hard today, on the contrary it was tradable.

-35 pips

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Down day

Messing around at figure. It would be better if I pick my spots in less dramatic places. I'm using today's loss to stop with trading as planned at daily loss limit. It's a step in emotional control. It's not easy for me to stop here and now.
I'm probably still somehow angry at yesterday's nonsense. Shouldn't even trade today.
-17 pips

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

+2 pips

Sometimes I act very stupid. After being mostly in loss I got lucky break with spike up and was in the lead some 30 pips. Then ten pips more. After it was pretty bad trading in the range and later angry mode. So I lost it all. Can't say much in my defense, I should know better. I had for some time limit to risk those last ten pips, but after I spent them I continued past my limit.

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

-6 pips

I don't know is it a good thing or bad thing that I traded past -15 pips because I felt concentrated and without emotional pressure and cut loss after -25 to -6 pips.

Monday, January 16, 2012

Long time no see

It's a time for an update. As you know this is fifth year that I write this blog, actual trading sometime longer, but here is documented my serious attempt at this business. Then you know that I'm basically unprofitable, it's enough to visit my results label. I'm also stubborn. Sometimes its bad in making trading mistakes, and good in not giving up. I'm really slow learner and it's taking me ages to implement steps that I schedule for myself.

I updated missing days in my blog of course only after really good last day so I don't have to only blush in shame.

Right now I'm fighting battle with myself on maximum daily stop loss. It's going on for some time now. My declared number is fifteen pips. My stops are six pips, so about 2.5R. Usually I get emotional around daily stop level so I go for one more trade, then another. Occasionally realization that I broke my rules bring me in revenge and extreme emotions mode. Then I enter successive trades in short span of time losing six by six by six pips in rage. That's the present.

At least I can say that I learned some lessons so far, so it's not only bad. First I had problems with entering in direction of the trend, in my first years. I was only counter trend trader. Which is common and very debilitating trading behavior at many beginning traders. So much is left on the table, waiting out while price is moving in a trend just to get that elusive reversal. Only if you get it and it develops in new trend you are long gone out and looking again for another reversal. I succeeded in changing myself and going with the trend, or more accurate in direction of a breakout. It took me long time but I'm proud of that step because it was first step that made at least some difference.

After that came hurdle of averaging down when in loss. It was awful. I would try to escape every loss by averaging down. So I had many positive days with small wins made with averaging when they should be losing days. Add to that winning days from the start and it all looked promising. Only to face one day when trend is strong, there are no bounces and I'm on wrong side. Those days would take weeks of effort and apparent success and put me deep in the red. I didn't know how to stop myself. Only HPT's advice worked to have in account only enough margin to trade with one position. So I basically started to trade full margin.
Well after that step my averaging break in discipline transformed in widening my stop. That was disaster also. So not long time ago I changed setting on my chart to make invisible my stop level making it impossible to just drag and drop line on my chart that I did until then. So now I'm at that phase. My discipline problem transformed in overtrading easily making thirty or so trades. Mostly losing ones, waiting for big winner that will wipe out losers.
So now I'm in that step trying to stop my day after reasonable loss, reasonable based on what I gain on a good day.

It's all discipline problem, same problem from averaging until now. I believe it's basically avoiding acceptance of being losing trader. Because what if I follow all the rules and still remain to be unsuccessful and unprofitable. It's defeat so I basically chose not to face it. Instead of being losing trader and still trade despite of my unsuccess and basically just learn.It would be more beneficial then this hide and seek game with my own discipline.

Lately I lost interest in blogging regularly mostly because of my terrible performance. It's embarrassing posting daily how horrible I'm doing. Also google cut me out from their adsense program so that materialistic motive was gone. I would like to thank for all the clicks in last four years that transcribed in around $1800. Maybe now when I stopped earning from talking about trading I can start to earn from trading.  :)

 In last year there is one other matter that brought me big frustration and that is change in market behavior on small time frames that I use. Moves are shorter on sub 1min charts, there is much less follow through after signal for me. So stops are much more frequent. I learned to trade specifically and I'm not good at all in different trading environment.

In my recent trading last few months after some good head start I started going in to losing spiral that stopped after I lost basically all what was left in my trading account. I lost steadily thought the year losing 84% until August. Then with some gambling for fun I doubled what was in account. Then I doubled it again to cut loss to around 32%. At the end of the October I broke down losing 80% bringing me back to August levels where I no longer consider it serious trading because of lack of relevant size of trades. I was totally depressed and probably hit the bottom because I started browsing through all my old trading materials that I read long time ago looking for a spark, looking for something. I didn't found anything new but my resolution to continue by any means be it rereading old books and articles resurrected my trading spirit. It was down and out and few days later it was like what can I do but continue from wherever I know. I didn't put any more money in account. Somehow I can strive for good trading using demo like account, so let it be for now.
Even if I'm making Scalp and Swing frustrated by my stubbornness I continue with my quest. If Solfest can fight his mut how can I sit and do nothing. If MBA can do all what he is doing with serious money I have to keep on. Finally if A Pip Throwing Party can scalp so amazingly there is a real chance for success in scalping.

Friday, January 13, 2012

Moment of pride

I'm pleased and proud of quick and accurate reactions to sudden volatile move at the end of chart. Up until then I was most of the time in positive territory but unable to move far. Then fifty pips move came in span of three minutes. I captured thirty five with right kind of scalping. I took what was offered and didn't give back. Entering again and again as market moved and presented opportunity.

+43 pips


Thursday, January 12, 2012

+12 pips

More of positive development.

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Positive day

Fighting step by step in small range market. Only two pips average size for 30 second candles is really smallish. Hard to get a grip on the move if looking only at momentum of price.

+4 pips

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

-7 pips

Probably should have stopped after first two stops and -14, took third trade and cut loss in half. Decided to stop trading while in fourth trade because I wasn't up to it any more.

Monday, January 9, 2012

Rage in the end again

Disciplined in the start, even tried to have longer term trade with taking first only half of the trade off on my fourth trade. From -6 to +5 then -5 up again to +5 and after it steadily down turning into now already familiar rage fest losing total control over myself.


Friday, January 6, 2012

NFP scalping

Good scalping after NFP. Lucky and unlucky at third trade. First it was reversal back to downside after two full stops, but by mistake had fifteen pips take profit and couldn't make it larger on time.

+6 pips

Thursday, January 5, 2012

+15 pips

I can trade the way I want sometimes.